It is funny how people judge other people by how they look, speak and especially dress. Does these signs really give justice to who you really are? Should we even give people a chance to redeem themselves after the fact that you have classified them already? These are the questions that sometimes boggles my mind when such silly comments are being said about somebody you don't even know. Despite the shortcomings that we have we must take in consideration of the people we actually know and how they have surprised us on things that you would not even imagine they could even do. Sometimes I surprise myself for things that I would not even have thought of doing but did these stuff anyways. I like challenging myself. There is this certain drive that I feed on when I am in that situation. I believe these experiences makes you stronger and ready to face problems that normally would make you go crazy and loose control. Even though you are not a control freak I still think that they would try to know in some way or another that they still have control over their lives. But yet it is also true how others have the short end of the stick where they just go for the ride and do not have the luxury of having these choices.

Confessions of a soon to be Laid Off Worker

Okay they called in a meeting at 10:00 AM. Right now it is 8:36 and my tummy is starting to growl. What would you expect in something like this? What I think is that it is either they will lay us all off or just a selected few. How the hell will they decide that anyways? My building alone houses 6,000-7,000 employees and that is not including the security and maintenance people. We know that they have cleared Human Resources, Payroll and IT. But yet my department is the biggest one and all of us right now cant focus enough to continue working. This is the worst position to be waiting for it to be 10 and anticipating the news that they are going to announce to be either good or bad.

Just a Text away

I was drinking my coffee on a Saturday morning watching the news for some odd reason. Then I saw the landslide in Leyte. Shocked but relieved that the American troops are sent to the Philippines to help look for survivors. Then that night I went to my sister’s house to watch more pinoy news. The victims of the landslide are sending text messages to their family saying they are still alive. I could not even describe the horror of not being able to help your family after receiving such message. I see the pain in the families’ faces and trust me that I even felt it all the way here.

Let me see. The day of hearts, the day of love and the day of Cupid. I will try not to be too bitter about this. But . . . how the hell can you stop me anyways. I promised myself to stop being so pessimistic about such holidays and look at it in a brighter way. Then again the urge to be negative is eating me alive. All you can hear is love songs and cheesy dedications on the radio. Then turn on the TV and there it is movies that will melt your heart and wish that you would find true love. Well let me see. Maybe there is something good that will turn out with this one. Despite the fact that I am not at home and all alone writing this blog surely sounds pathetic to anybody. See, it is not just the fact that it is Valentines but it is the fact that I am alone that bothers me. I have spent most of the day looking for ways to forget this holiday but everywhere you look reminds you every bit of detail that you are missing. Vendors on the street selling roses and flower shops that is filled with heart balloons in their entrance way. Even in church(per my friend) the priest ask couples to stand and pray over their relationship. I do not blame people who are alcoholics, drug addicts, and depressed for being who they are cause it sure is hard to move on and face reality if reality keeps reminding you of something that you do not have.
Yeah yeah you have your friends and family but the media surely brainwashed us enough to think that valentines are for lovers. Lovers meaning man and woman having deep connections to eachother. It may symbolize plain sex or just sticking to the relationship just to avoid being in my state. I thought long and hard if I should write this blog cause for sure people would say that I need to see a specialist. But even if I am a psycho that would not change my point of view.

Do I invest for my 401K or not?

Well well well.... I would not have thought of being a person who would even be close to thinking of funding for the future. I was mostly the person who would go ahead and spend the money on my paycheck and make sure that I have enough for parties and new clothes during the week. But my friend insisted that I should invest money in my 401 K since that big news about the unsufficient funding ability of our beloved social securityby the time my generation of people decide to retire. Let me see the deal with 401 K is that they are not yet taxable unless taken out for some odd and good reason. If you have set up your own 401 K from your own bank or any other financial institution then you could take it out when ever you want but if you got it through your employer then you have to look at your employment packet on when you would be able to take the 100% vested amount. A good example is that my company has allowed us to take it out after 2 years of service. But why would you even do that if you are not ready to retire. It is a bad idea to take out your 401 K when you are not going to retire since you are going to be taxed on the year that you did it and trust me that would not be some small amount.

Let say you started thinking of investments for your retirement. They will always give you options of companies to invest in even though it is conservative companies meaning not much movements that would really hinder you from saving your money. You can treat this as practice if you want to learn going into stocks in the future. Most likely you just have to learn about the companies offered to you and see how they do every year. Make a wise decision cause this will reflect on how your money will grow. Sometimes it is wiser to spread your money around all the companies that they offer you so if one stock goes down it does not hurt you as much cause the rest of your investment will go up. But make your decision before the close of the market so you will not loose in anything. Timing is precious in these kinds of investments. Anyways I hope this is informative enough for you to at least get you to read and pay more attention on your retirement.

As I was putting away unwanted pictures, I stumbeld across my old highschool pictures. It is so funny how it has been 10 years since highschool graduation. I still think that we look the same but of course more experienced and matured I guess. Reminscing through all that has happened since then was so overwhelming. Sometimes how I wished I went to college with them so I would be a part of those debus and weddings that I have missed. Yet I do treassure the few memories I have with my friends in highschool. They are so fun and innocent at that time (ha ha ha ha). The one with blue background was taken when I visited Phil in 1998, the black and white one was in junior year and finally the freshman year pics.

I have no idea why I have such a hard time to write in my blog. Whenever I start to type a post my mind goes blank then I would hear my boss's voice calling me. At home, despite the fact that I should have more time to think of what to write I still get that blank look in my face.

Well the only thing that I could think of right now is that I have cleared all evidence of being married in my condo. It was a hard and tiring task to do. Everytime I try to take something away and put it in a box, my energy seems to get drained at the same time. I use to remember back then when I swore that I would be the last person to go through this shit. Then due to my stupidity I opened the "Never open unless needed box" where I put away the memoirs of the past relationships that I had. A mixture of feelings flowed in me when I started to remember why the stuff are in there and how everything else ended. What was so funny about this situation was when I got married I wanted to throw that box away cause I was so confident that I will not need it anymore. Here I am needing a bigger "Never open unless needed box"!

** Note when I update my blog at work it does not give me a prompt to enter a title. I wonder why.**