Why is this so hard to do?

I am having a hard time to work out. I know that I should do it to have better health but I am just not motivated. There is this pants that I bought two sizes smaller for me to get motivated and start working out so I could fit into them. But… My fat pictures displayed on the walls was one of my friends idea so I would be reminded to work out. But…. The worst part of all is that I dont even make excuses why I should not work out I just plainly tell them that I am seriously not motivated and I do not know why. I do not want to wait until I get diabetes or CHF just to realize that I have to do what it takes to loose weight. Argh, just writing this blog entry frustrates me.

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How can one love one’s self despite the faults?

I am having a hard time loving myself. Though there are times that I try to say something good, reality kicks in and hits me right on my face. We are always reminded by our failures more than our achievements. I feel like somewhere down the road of trying to be an adult and cope up with the responsibilities tied with it I have lost myself. Frankly at times I feel like I do not even know who I am anymore. I do not know if I am a good person or a bad person. I do not know if I enjoy the sunrise or sunset. There are many excuses for things that I have done and consequences I have to face. But is this really who I am? Maybe, psychiatric help is needed to ease one’s mind. I have admitted my faults in life but I do not think I have accepted them. How can I accept that I have failed myself? Remember the greatest question that we ask kids all the time? What do you want to be when you grow up? Now I dread those days when I had answered them so enthusiastically that I see myself getting married with 4 kids and a descent house with 2 dogs. That may seems so simple to some but a blurry and distant dream to me.

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Why do people cheat?

I am not about to answer that question because I have no idea why. I have a friend who is what you call perfect physically, per the men out there and she has a really good personality too. She has dated men and they have cheated. For some odd reason she tried dating women and they still cheated.

Many may think that there must be something wrong with her that is why people cheat but yet when I relate this to my own relationships I have noticed that a number of them have cheated on me too. Now cheating was never my thing that is why I never chose to even try it. Why can't people be mature enough and trust the person that they once loved will appreciate it more if were told sooner about the situation? Why would they lag and let time pass them by then before you know it you have wasted a year or two fooling each other? It is bad enough that they cheated on you but to even realize the time and effort wasted makes it even worst.