Is my biological clock ticking and leaving me behind?

I had a birthday lunch with 3 of my coworkers yesterday. One of them just turned 45 but she looks really good for her age. According to them once you reached 25 they just stop counting. It does not mean that they are depressed about the increasing number but it is just that they don’t feel any older. I just turned 29 and the reality of being single in this age is scary. Most men are either taken or have a family and I am definitely not planning to be a home wrecker. Those who happen to be single are looking for a younger, sophisticated goddess where for sure I am out of the picture. But of course they are not going to admit that to your face and they would say something bogus like he is out there he just needs to find you. Whatever! My body is giving me signals of depreciation and these signs scare me. I feel like my biological clock is about to run out of battery and before I can make a move it will completely die out. That is just not fair how only women have a biological clock.

Deng!

I have no idea life can bring so much out of you as well as in you. I dont even know if I quite understand myself. Let us just say if you have been through a bad relationship where your partner cheated on you for more than a year, would you go back with her/him? Is it really love that is why we discard our own pain just to have the person back in our life? Maybe we just dont want to accept the change of being alone again that is why we deal with the hurt instead. I can not speak for those people who cheated but for those people who got cheated on then I can say a lot of stuff. Getting out of our comfort zone is really scary at times, but to fool ourselves in thinking that this person still loves me despite the fact that he/she already have another is just plain suicide. At the same time you are destroying more of the relationship than what can be left as a good memory. I know that they say you have to fight for the one you love yet they left the most important part of that saying. It should go like this - "Fight for the one you love for the right reasons." How do you say you love the person if you trap them within your barriers of so called love to satisfy your own fear of being single? That is just selfish and might I say really risky if you still want to remain friends in the end. I have my fair share of pain and selfishness but I should have known better to let things go the way it is suppose to be. We fear the things we do not know and try to hang on to things that are familiar but yet we forget that people change, things change and the world will still go on with or without our consent. Is it really fair for us to hold on to people who does not really share the same emotions?

by joobjoo

LOSERS!!!!!

What happens when you leave 4 bored people in a picnic with playing cards?

Expectations

Expectations have always been a part of human nature. But for some, expectations maybe lower than others. When we get disappointed, most likely due to unexpected results we tend to get hard on ourselves or make up excuses along the way. I on the other hand, have low or no expectations, which is sometimes good and bad at the same time. Good in a way that I shield myself from the pain, but it is also bad because I do not challenge myself that much. Everybody has potential I just chose to make sure of the result before showing any more interest into the subject. But sometimes words not meant to be said or are loosely spoken may hurt you no matter how much you try not to be affected by it. Do you ever feel fulfilled with the life choices and challenges that you have chosen to go through? This is the question that has been bothering me ever since my life-changing incident. I hate regretting things that has happened to me but being depressed I just cant help but wonder how my life would have turned out if I did not make stupid mistakes. Yes my mistakes in life made me stronger but it has also made me loose faith in myself. How many more of my expectations should I fail before I really ruin my life?

Canadians are so nice.

Just got back from a cruise to Mexico. In the cruise we were stuck in the ship for 3 days before we landed to Alcapulco. During that duration of time you get to mingle with the other people on the trip. I have noticed how the friendliest people who were willing to talk and joke around were canadians. Forget about people from LA they will be looking straight at you thinking you have something fishy under your sleeve. But the minute you wake up and start walking around the boat the canadians are the ones who would say goodmorning and hold the elevator for you. How do I know they are canadians most of them have the accent or some kind of clothing or thing that has the canadian flag on it.